Why hello life... clearly you are punking me.

I was duped again. I was duped into believing the lies of someone else. I let them get close to me, they couldn't handle it (I warned him/her like I always do), and they bolted.
LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?
Now I'm getting accused of shit that I'm not. Buddy, its what being in a proper long term relationship is about. You tell each other shit. You talk. You discuss. Guess you are too boring for that. You wanted me to be in it for the long term, but you were the one who couldn't take it. But hey what the fuck do I know about relationships? But I've gotta ask... who the fuck made you relationship expert? Who the fuck made you understand relationships better than I do. Nobody. All I know is what I want in the long term. If you can't fulfill it, not my problem.
(Sorry but its my rage talking, and she isn't very nice.)
But seriously, you convinced me. You got me to do this, and YOU bail. You gave me some reasons, telling me its not my fault. Then you tell a number of people that it is. Don't fucking lie to me, I hate liars and you know that. You didn't even tell me the real reason yourself so how very fucking cowardly of you.
You say you want to be friends but you never fucking talk to me. Hey this is all on you, not me. So fuck you. Fuck you for even trying to make me feel like its my fucking fault. Its not. Get over yourself. Its yours. You couldn't be what I wanted. I couldn't be what you wanted. I should have realized this in the beginning. You're too young and immature if you want all honesty. I'd been considering dumping you near the beginning of our relationship. But I wanted to have faith. I wanted to think you could. Haha what a fucking disappointment. Its probably both of our faults, but doing what you did... it makes it your fault. Not extending me a fair shake... makes it your fault. When you want a person to change, you tell them what you have a problem with, and wait a while for them to change... You did things so out of order so fuck you.
Don't you dare fucking say you loved me, because that is such a fucking lie. Go find some small town dumbass bitch to love. You don't deserve me, never will.
As Marilyn Monroe said "I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
You don't deserve me. At all.

Lizzeh