I feel as though....

I should begin this with DEAR DIARY... but I'm not.
Life's made another change again. The person I was with for the last few months... I can't be with. I won't be with. He won't love me.
I know it was right for us to break up. He knows too... but I wish there was something more I could have done.
But if you do everything you could have.... what more could you have done?
I feel like I gave up, but I know I never did. I feel like I abandoned him.... but I didn't. It just feels confusing. But I have every right to go after my happiness right?
It was just emotionally traumatic I suppose. I just felt alone most of the time. Just like I do right now. I didn't want that. I was expecting more, and he was expecting more from himself. And I guess that was just not how the cookie was going to crumble.
I guess I'll just continue with what I usually do and let myself follow what my heart says. Because I'm happy with the decisions I made. I'm happy with who I am. and I've got to continue down the road I take.

Lizzeh